i wanna i wanna i wanna

i just flashback in my older post in this blog…and i found this post http://indietsays.wordpress.com/2008/12/11/things-i-wanna-buy/ ….and now…most of that item is bought!!! *finger crossed* except lombok vacation..okaay and for this year..i wanna make a list again..it makes me become smart shopper by the way..eventhough still a lot impulsive2 buying this year..ohohoo..but i work on it..okaayy…so here is goo..i wanna i wanna i wanna:

1.

This is black nine west shoes….since last year i mostly buy charles & keith shoes…i want to start buy nine west..which is more expensive,, but some friends said it is more everlasting than charles & keith…rite pals?and this picture of shoes look sooo beautiful..sophisticated!!!i wannaaa thaaaatttt!!!

2.
This is fossil watch…since a long time i wanna have golden watch..but i think casio is so   “pasaran”  and i find this type of watch..since my boyfriend told me that my old watch is too childish…so i decided to buy a new one..more profesional model i think..like this..profesional but not “berlebihan”…

3.

this is blackberry gemini white..my old soner k850 now is not health anynmore..eventhough i have it repaired, it’s not 100% health..hiks..i love my handphone so much..so i decided to pick 1 phone…and now is blackberry era..since i never have white phone..so this is becoming first choice..not too expensive…with good spesification..yeaah let save money to buy this..

4.

i wanna learn france language…why french? because for me, some people around me could speak french, so i can practice with them…and french language are used in some country beside frennch…like swiss…etc..and above all that..i wish i can get scolarship to french someday…second choice after UK of course..ohohhoho…

5.

this is phi phi island in thailaaand…huaaa..so beautifulll..awesome…i really wanna go theree..from now i’ve been searching for air asia promo..hahhaa..some friends said that living cost in thai is not too expensive..soo…yes i can go there somedayy!!

6.

you know where it is..yepp..it is sydney..australiaa..huaaaa..i wanna traveling accros the continent…so australia becoming 1st choice because distance between aussie-ina not so far…and apparently, i have a friend living there..so she could be my tourist guide…ohohoho..save moneey save moneey..

7.

huaaaaaaa….i dont know when they will come to indonesiaa..come here please adam levine..surely,,i will ask so many friends to accompany me watching ur performance…oke okee…come hereeee…pleaaasee…..

8.

this is digital photo frame…i wanna this for a long time..so that i can changing display photos in my room without even “nyetak foto berkali-kali”..hohoho..

okeeyy finiiished!!there are 8 things i wanna…hope i can make it this year…amiiinn…what about you??do u have any wish list??

welcoming 2010

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiii smuaaaa….long time no blogging yet…happy new year everyone…im sooo two thousand and ten..hahaa..apa seehh..welcoming all brand new nii..resolusi 2009 yg blom trcapai adalah blom bisa renang..sedangkan 2009 yg uda trcapai adalah uda bs nyetir..meski bbrp kali melukai mobil itu..haahhaha..maap yaak *untung asuransi*

smoga 2010 iniiii br hr keempat tp udah banyaak ni yg baruu…new boss..new account…new division..brjalan dg lancar smuanyaaa…amiinn…..

Yeaah this is what u call “LIFE”

kalo kata coldplay “Life is Technicolor”…yang gw kalo cb artikan..hidup itu berwarnaa,,,,ga cuma hitam dan putih aja..tp ada abu abu..kalo ga..ga bakal ada para “penghuni” taman lawang..hidup itu ga pastii…yang pasti cuma kita pasti mati..vampire aja bisa ,ati..*looh ngelantur*…what im trying to say is..hidup itu terkadang berat buat dijalanin..gw si ga bisa ngebayangin beratnya ngejalanin idup buat para korban gempa..tp gw sndiri lg ngrasa hrs kuaaat menjalani idup gw yg skrg..maklum udah LDR..trus ga dihargain oleh bbrp orang..yeaah gw rasa cukup buat gw ngerasa hrs cr banyak2 motivasi buat menjadikan gw personal yg lebih baik..i mean..we dont know what will  happen next..so trying the best so  we can to face the all the trouble of life…kalo kata Lenka kan Trouble is a friend..tp dont let me fall…without trouble life is not technicolor anymore i think..

Dulu gw pernah ditanya ama pacar…”mnurut lo, lo idup buat apa? apa lo idup cuma karena lo ga mati?”..gw jawab ” enggalaah, gw idup buat bikin orangtua gw bahagia”..trus ditanya lagi “emang skrg orgtua lo ga bahagia?” ..gw (mikir) ” ya enggga si”….mulai dr sana gw berpikir…….apaaa yaaa sbnrnya goal gw dlm idup….apa bener gw idup karena gw ga mati aja??gw rasa engga deh..gw idup buat..bkin gw lebih berharga di mata orang lain..duh ngmg apaa si gw..yg jelas..gw punya goal ko dalam idup..dan im not quitter…i will reach my goal as long as i can….huff..kalo kamu??hidup buat apa??

loser…

i just feel like loser lately..

why oh why,,,most of time lately i keep my spirit down..

maybe in deep inside i am stressed..considering i have 2 period time this month,,,it isnt normal..

should i say that my mental not ready yet…to enter this new world..

i keep asking myself, why oh why i should feel the way it is…

am i making a mistakes?

am i too sensitive?

am i too young?

okey,,now, im completely loser…

whats wrong become Indonesian?

..a lot of things i wanna to tell..okaayy sometimes i admit that i’ve ever underestimate my country..you know..a class third country, a bombing country, a semrawut country, a bla bla bla and bla…but then i realized, as an Indonesian i supposed to be support my country…this is however is still my country..is still my place when i grow up..my place i destined to meet all people who loves me..

I believe that Indonesia have something…or maybe everything..

Have u ever been in Ujung Genteng, Ujung Kulon, or Bali?  i’ve ever been there…and when i was there i just thought, where am i? is it heaven? i just couldn’t imagine how wonderful heaven is..

or Have u ever been in Lombok, Bunaken, or Raja Ampat? i’ve never..but im pretty sure..really really sure..those place are really really have zillion beautiful sights..

Then what did they say about Indonesia?

Peter Vogt (ex CEO Nestle Indonesia) said : It’s easy to come to Indonesia, but it’s really difficult to leave it. You are lucky people who can work in Indonesia…

Rickysans (guitarist of Melle) ever set a tweet on his twitter: i have a best day in my life in Jakarta & Bali..he also ever tweet in 17 august 2009..”Happy Birthdaay Indonesia”

Tyson Ritter (Vocalist of All American Rejects) in detik.com said: this is the most beautiful country (after AAR visited taipei, Japan, Hongkong, etc) because its citylight..

So, why are we always rumbling about how bad Indonesia is..why we just easily get angry when our neighbor change our Indonesia Raya lyrics..”indonesia tanah miskinku” from the first sentence i just know that is not true..you know that too right??..Our country is fullfilled by kind and nice people..who care about each other..then why we just live in peace..

Then whats wrong become Indonesian..Indonesia is RICH country…RICH..RICH and RICH…Long live Indonesia…

This Love

so,yesterday he wrote on my wall on fb:

Imam Fahmi Wibowo when theres no getting over that rainbow…
when my smallest of dream wont come true…
i can take all the madness, the world has to give….
but i wont last a day,,,without umesh….itchuu

Imam fahmi Wibowo I wanna fall into you
And I wanna be everything you want me to
But I’m not sure I know how

It doesn’t matter what I say
’cause it always seems you’re taking me the wrong way
But if you could read my mind
You’d see, I fight myself all the time

I wanna lie next to you
And I wanna do everything you want me to
But I’m not sure I know how

Honey, please..
Put your arms around me now
When I feel you I surrender..

Unconditional love

hohohohoho..and those wall succes make me smiling all day…i dont know how to explain but..he is not a romantic kind of person..so when he wrote that kind of “romantis-romantisan” thing…i surprised…hohoho…*blushing*..makasii ya mii..

what i watch this week..

Yaaaakkkkk…jumpaa lagiiiii….duh ilaaahh gw berusahaa mencari kesibukan di tengah ketiadaan kerjaan dikantoorr guaaa…heran jg gw dah nii…ngapa ga ada kerjaan muluu..ohohoho…ngantuk kan jadinyaa guaaahhh…jadii hr ini ngapaaiin yaa..nulis apaa yaa…mmm…yaudaah dah resensi pelem ajaaa…mgg2 ini gw ntn harry potter ama public enemies….harry potternya jumat di Djakarta teater…ini agak heri kesananyaaa..secaraa paginya br ada bom cobaaa di ritz carlton ama JW mariott…tapii tiket udah dibeliin dr rabuu…jadii ya mao gmana lagii paaann…yaudaaah membulatkaan tekaaaad sodaraa sodaraaaa skaliaaann!!! Merdeka…yaudaah gw ke jaktet daahh pelemnya jm 18.10..gw udah heri2 *heboh sndiri* dr kantor jam lima..takutnya macet scara jumatt…eh ga taunyaa lancaarr pisaaannn..gw ampe takjub..mgkn gara2 bom yee..orang jd atut mo kluar…yaudaah deh singkat critaa ntn pelemnyaa…2 stgh jam..and I think..that is the worst harry potter film…huaaaaaaaa…ga tauu knapaa….tp mnurut gw nii..padahal gw kan penikmat pelem yaa..bukan kritikus pelem..ngerasa kalo pelem ini banyak adegan ga pentingnyaa…kaya drama2 an lavender-ron-hermione…lebih penting kalo masa lalu voldemort diangkaatt..ibunya kek…dia kturunan slytherin kek..hohoho..udah gt special effectnya Cuma dikit yg keren,,,pas pertama doang yg jmbtaan roboh..abis ituu..engga adaaaaaaa…trus ko gw berasanyaa pas dumbledorenya matee ga sedih2 amat yaa..padahal gw kan nangis pas baca novelnyaa…temen gw si rikaa malah YM-an during that movie cobaaa….gelooo….yaudah dah yg blom ntn..ntn aja cobaa..

Truusss…kmrn gw ntn public enemies..pelemnya Johnny depp si om ganteng ituuuhh,,,tumben bener diaa di pilm ini..biasanya kan ga kliatan tu yee mukanyaa…scara didandanin ga jelas2 gt…okee back to the movies…pelem ini menurut gw…mmm gmana yaa..ko gw bosen yaa ntnnyaa,,itu kalo gw ntn dirumaahh.pasti lgsg gw stop…hahhaa….abisan bete..actionnya biasa ajaa…critanya juga gampang ditebak..mgkn kalo ga Johnny depp yg maen..bakalaaan bosaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnnnn….channing tatuumnya lgsg mateee…kaya figuran bgt dah ah…ga seruu..jadii mgg ini ga puass dah gw ntnnyaaa….eh iyaa gw pikir2…gw jadi sering bgt dah ntn bioskop,,semnjak kantor seglesotan doang ke Planet Hollywood..hahaha..sminggu bisa dua kali ntn cobaaa…gapapa daaah yg penting seneng…hohoho…

This is not really me…

Hollaaaaa blog…its been long time not telling you my story…lately, i realize something..that sometimes i really wanna write if i feel blue..or sad…or whatever u named it…and now i feel it that way…huuufff….i dont know when this feeling started…for all i know..maybe im a lil bit losing my self confidence,,,huuufff….this is not really me..hopefully i can handle it….

Apa kabaaarrrr….

waaaaaaaaw….ga kerasa dah lama juga gw ga posting..huhuhuhu..emang ni jiwa ngeblognya aga2 ilang..mklum sebuk beratttt,,,hahahahha,.,,ga juga sii…cuma emang blognya agak terlupakan…hohoho..oiaoiaaa…gw blum crita2 yaa ttg travelling gw 2 mgg lalu ke ujung kuloon…waaaaaaaah pengen ceritaaaaaaaaaa…tp ga skaraaang yaaa….tar ajaa..hahahaaa..okee..catch up later!!!!

Mantra Patronus gw

Gw kmrn smpet maen2 lagi ke blognya raditya dika..trus ada postingan ttg ini..ini linknya http://radityadika.com/ini-mantra-patronus-gue/…
naah postingan ini lumayan memotivasi gw ikutan ngebuat jugaa..hohoho
oiyaaa..jd gw terangin dikit dah..patoronus ituu..ada di harry potter..naah pada suka bacaa kaan..intinya mantra ini buat ngusir makhluk penghisap kebahagiaan (dementor)..nah untuk ngebuat mantra ini lo hrs mikirin hal2 yg bisa bikin lo bahagiaaa..baru ngucapin mantra “Expecto patronum”…baru deh bisa keusir tuh makhluk..naah sadar ga sadar..gw yakiiin bgt di skitar lo smua pasti ada dementor..yaaah artinya kalo disini adaaaa aja orang yang bisa bikin lo ga termotivasi..lo sedih…lo ga snyum..lo bete..naaah oleh karenanyaa..gw juga mau bikin list hal2 yg bisa bikin gw bahagiaa..
jadiii ini patronus gw:
1. Makan eskrim…rasa apa ajaaa gw sukaa..kecuali rasa duren..hiiiiiiiiiiii
2. Ke pantaaaaiii……seneng bgt gw ke pantaai..liat deburan ombak ama birunya langit..
3. Having quality time ama pacaaar…autis2an ga jelas..tabok2an..trus ngliatin dia btingkah aneh2..ohoho..
4. tidur sepuas mungkiiin,,ga dibatesin hrs bgn jam brapaa…
5. inget2 gmana rusuh dan hebohnya gw dulu ama temen2 gw pas ngekos..i rili miss that time pals..
6. liat jaket kuning gw…dan sesaat mengingat kembali..ngapain aja gw dikampus itu…how awesome my life in college..
7. ngebuka buku taunan SMU 61 gw..dan senyum2 sndiri…inget berbagai macam kebodohan gw dan temen2 gw tentunyaa,,,,slama masi putih abu abu
8. Nonton pelem2 berkualitaaaas…yang insightnya bagus buat khidupaan…yg bikin gw abis ntn bilang “baguuuuuuuuuuuuuus”
9. Ngliatin mukanya jude law, adam levine, josh hartnett, orlando bloom, jonathan rhys meyers, chad murray, freddie prince jr, jared padalecki, jensen ackles, justin timberlake, chace crawford, heath ledger (alm), Jake gyllenhaal, justin chambers, fedi nuril, fahri albar, dan John Martin Tumbel…tidak lupa Imam Fahmi Wibowo *terpaksa nyebutnya..hahaha
10. dengerin lagunya All American Reject – Move Along
11. Maen sepedaa keliling UI…seneng gw ama suasananya…balap2an ga jelas.lepas tangan…
12. Window shopping…jalaan jalan bangkruuut…
13. perawatan di saloon…krimbat..lulur..ohohoho
14. Maen maen ama temaan temaaan..hunting poto,,nonton bioskop, maen bowling…hohoho..
15. last but not least……liat poto wisuda gw bersama orang tua gw yang tersenyum difoto itu…=)

kalo kamu..apa mantra patronus kamu??